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[sid] => 177949
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => hit and miss
[time] => 2014-03-15 22:17:28
[hometext] => i hope this is the last poem like this that i write. i wrote it today, and it's about doing my Last Hit, which was today, the day of the poem's submission. i'll be amending this part in a few days, i just wanted the first readers to know this was TODAY
[bodytext] => hit and miss, it's been a while but it's no surprise... it was the final "This Is It." didn't get the intended result, but... I Laughed. I Laughed at how I think myself better than the self that I'm not. I Laughed at the way I hurt myself and then waited... then I smiled as I entered a Big, Empty Space. how could it be any other way? even if I never die, as I suspect I never will, it will ALWAYS be the Same. the worst decision we'll ever love. the best intentions. the Pusher's Shove. the second chance stolen, last seen dressed as a Shine with glowing white fire where once was its eyes. the back of your mind that controls everything... even where the back of the mind is labeled as being. the endless Make-It-Stop, the spine that we sold then used all the money to Waste all the Gold. the imagination we waste on what to name our own Curse, the understanding that each of us has had it the Worst. the Ending you hope to see all the way through, the Beginning of who you hope is the Real You. Joshua David Howell 3-15-2014 [comments] => 2 [counter] => 136 [topic] => 66 [informant] => jigget [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => drugabuse )
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