 |
Poems On Site: 198,500+ Comments On Poems: 427,000+ Forum Posts: 105,000+ |
Custom Search
|
|
|
||||
| Welcome ! | Home · FAQ · Topics · Web Links · Your Account · Submit Poetry · Top 30 · OldSite Link | 03-June 09:49:21 AEST | ||
|
|
||||
|
|
||||
|
|
||||
|
Array
(
[sid] => 168631
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => I used to love him and I think I still do
[time] => 2011-11-16 13:03:47
[hometext] => True Story....Foolish Girl
[bodytext] => On an emotional roller coaster, with a man not mine to claim. He use to be my ex many moons ago We recently reconnected after being apart for over 20 years I don’t even know him anymore, but I still feel something Is it love… lust, or am I just insane. I spent years running from him and hoping to never see him again. One day he spotted me in a parking lot and spoke to me…hugged me tightly... My entire body melted on the spot! So awkward.. so sweet…I was speechless. My heart was racing, my mind was frantic, my face was smiling, my feet were running. He looked amazing, he felt even better...this was clearly a sin! At first I was mad. Why did I have to run into him? And on a day that I did not look my best, not even close! WTF…Why do I care? I’ve moved on….he’s moved on. But his face, his smile, his voice crippled me. This was not supposed to happen. I'VE MOVED ON! But I feel something pounding in my chest. Is this just a whim? He gave me his number and went on his way. I refused to call. I told myself “I am not calling that man.” What would I say? What would he say? I tossed and turned for one full week. No rest, no sleep, not even a wink. Eyes wide open staring at the ceiling wondering what…why… how…why…why? I finally broke down and sent a text message: “Hey E, great to see you the other day.” After only speaking to him a few times, I am hooked. He is still as funny as ever, wiser, stronger, and even more charming than before. I can’t wait till he calls me or sends me a text. I smile when I see his number flashing on my phone. Like a school girl…. hoping, wishing, and praying for his affection. He’s got me wide open like a good book. I realize now that I never got over him….over us He was once mine to marry and create offspring, but I dropped him for another. Why did we break up you ask? On one hand he was thoughtful, kind, loving, gentle… On the other hand he was evasive, inconsiderate, and unprotective of my feelings. I guess I just found our relationship hard to trust, and when someone else came along, I decided to put an end to us. So what is the problem? What am I doing? Where do I go from here? I am falling for him hard and I don’t want to. I am really scared Am I DTF? no….No…..NO. I don’t want to go there and I don’t get the impression that he does either. But for me, an emotional relationship is still something to fear. Let me tell you what I know And then I will let you go! He was my first love My first boyfriend fight The first to crack my back The first boy to get me in trouble with the elders The first boy I ever felt the need to fight over or about The first boy that ever made me cry The first boy that could make me smile just from thinking of him The first boy to ever make me feel good The first boy that I ever confessed my love to out loud The first boy to make me covet The first boy I ever ****** The first boy I ever missed We fit together like a glove. Okay then, another time Hopefully I have an answer when I drop the next dime. Peace, Love, and Chicken Grease, Signed Confused [comments] => 0 [counter] => 109 [topic] => 48 [informant] => Confusious [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
|
Menu
· 
Poetry
Community
Members
Areas
Reference
Search
Top
Others
Poetry is much like a great photo, a single "moment in time" capturing many feelings and emotions. Yet, they are very alive; creating stirrings within the readers who form visual "pictures" of the expressed emotions within the Poem. ©
Opinions expressed in the poetry, comments, forums etc. on this site are not necessarily those of this site, its owners and/or operators; but of the individuals who post items to this site.
Frequently Asked Questions | | | Privacy Policy | | | Contact Webmaster
All submitted items are Copyright © to their submitter. All the rest Copyright © 2002-2050 by Your Poetry Dot Com
All logos and trademarks in this site are property of their respective owners.
Script Generation Time: 0.052 Seconds. - View our Site Map | .© your-poetry.com