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[sid] => 166827
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => My Darling,
[time] => 2011-07-21 01:35:48
[hometext] => I had to vent...
[bodytext] => I cringe at the thought And I've cried myself to sleep these past few nights I'm so sorry But my apology doesn't mean anything to you right now I feel like you have chewed me up and spit me out You don't trust me and I understand why I told him no, he said he understood And I trusted what he said, that was my first mistake I wasn't thinking straight (I blame the drugs) He took advantage of my state of mind (I just gave up) But I almost feel like you don't have the right To beat me up this bad Because you did the same thing to me, if not a little worse It hurt me just as bad And I had to look him in the eyes every day And I had to try to believe the lies And I still don't trust you around him And I still don't trust you talking to him So I guess I understand But I never did this to you And I hope you know I have been beating myself up over this Worse than you know - I can say, now more than ever, that I hate myself I hate myself for hurting you, I hate myself for letting it happen I am ashamed, I am disgusted I'm angry and I'm sad The way you've reacted, the words that you've said... It all hurts so bad Between the both of us, I don't know how much more that I can take I don't know what to say to you Except to tell you how sorry I am Except to tell you that I love you But saying sorry doesn't mean anything to you And you think that my love is a lie You told me that you feel it has all been a lie But I promise on all that I love Our relationship and my love for you has not been a lie I don't want to lose you... I can't But I don't know what to do I don't know what to say [comments] => 2 [counter] => 258 [topic] => 50 [informant] => the_Unknown [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 0 [associated] => [topicname] => ApologyPoetry )
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