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[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Dark Matter
[time] => 2005-10-30 22:00:38
[hometext] => Another moment of self-indulgene. Brooding is bad for you, but eh. Whatever.
[bodytext] => I know I shouldn’t have it, I know it shouldn’t be here, But all it takes is one more hit; And I’ll give in to the fear. I’m scared of the things I can’t control; Expectations and aspirations; And all the things I just can’t hold; Exasperation and frustration; All these things mixed with me in my mold. Fear of myself, Fear of others, Fear that cant be put on a shelf, Fear that quickly smothers. I fear my own feelings, These seemingly realistic seeings; That open a window to my soul, Which I fear may be a giant hole. I fear that I’m worse Than what others think of me; That my thoughts are merely verse; Words and notes, but no harmony. I fear that others probe my thoughts, Can see through my mask; my shield; my wall; That instead of following a million knots, They fly through my defenses and see it all. I fear I’m disliked, Distrusted, despised; I fear I’m an outcast In everyone’s eyes. I hate my stupidity, I hate my apathy, I fear that all my ingenuity Will turn out to be serendipity. I just hope my empathy Doesn’t become a need for sympathy. I think that I’m scared of everybody; Everybody, including me. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 280 [topic] => 13 [informant] => ChibiMiroku [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => DarkPoetry )
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